Tuesday, April 08, 2008

If only I could make it go away

Last night when I went to bed, Brian and I were discussing the state of things. We have been sick off and on for at least 3 weeks. Not a horrible illness, but at least every five or so days someone has fever again. Colds. Congestion. Yesterday it was Andrew's turn to get a fever. And as we went to bed I wasn't convinced Michael didn't have a fever. Sure enough this morning tells us he does. He just had a fever the weekend before last!

I am frustrated to say the least. When will it end? Why are we being assaulted so? I desire a time where we are all healthy for a while. I know every mother wishes the same. I get discouraged. I find myself wondering what I am doing wrong that we persist in illness. If only I could make it go away. I can't control it. I can't make it go away. But I am stubborn.

I sleep on it. I wake to find Michael feverish. I still feel discouraged. And to top it all off, I am still congested and my neck really hurts.

And so this morning I open my Bible to read the Mass readings for the day. I read the first sentence, laugh, close my Bible and look at my favorite picture of Jesus hanging before me. Ha Ha - Very funny!

It says, "You stiff-necked people, uncircumcised in heart and ears, you always resist the Holy Spirit."

Enough said.

1 comment:

Melissa said...

Oh, Celeste! I'm so sorry your family is still trudging through illness. How wonderful, though, that you are able to keep your sense of humor and perspective about you! It WILL end...and you are doing NOTHING wrong! I wish I could be there to lend a hand. Prayers and big virtual hugs for you, dear friend! I love you!

P.S. Your quilts are absolutely beautiful. I am so envious of your amazing talent! I could learn so much from you!