That is how much I love Brian. With all my heart. WAMH.
In rereading some posts recently, I was struck by the one I wrote called, "Mending Socks." What I hope and pray is that it did not shed a bad light on Brian or our marriage. That is NEVER my purpose on this blog. I am SOOOO not in favor of any husband bashing of any kind, whether to family or friends, or even strangers on a blog. My blog is not a place to complain. I want it to be a place of fun, ideas and sharing. I do like to share my daily difficulties in hopes of encouraging others and aiding me in seeing how I can do better. But even that I hope to do in a fun and reflective manner.
That said, let me go on to say that my marriage and the husband God blessed me with are nothing short of "my heart's greatest desires." I always dreamed of finding the perfect husband, being happily married and having precious children. And that is so what I got. I could not be happier. Yes, life is life and none of us in this family are perfect, but we love each other, we serve each other and we are pretty darn happy! There is nowhere else I would rather be.
When I wrote that post I was feeling inspired by Danielle's topic and felt convicted about how much more I could be doing to love and serve my dear Brian. I was really feeling that I needed to be more giving. When I wrote about me changing and our marriage changing and Brian changing too as a result, I did not mean to imply that "everybody sure needs a lot of changing around here." What I hoped to convey was that when I change how I love and serve and give and when I change my attitude, things can only get better and happier. That kind of life-giving love is contagious and magnetic. If I do these things, our love can only grow and get better and better. That's what we want - right?
The post was meant to be about me and what I could use to change. I am not a horrible wife and mother, but I can improve. I can be a force in affecting how happy we all can be. I cannot pretend that I don't need to change. Even the saints were always quick to recognize where they needed to grow more, sin less, be more holy. I am so far from sainthood. So very very far.
I want to love more. I want to complain and nag and demand less. I want to be selfless not selfish in my acts of love. All this can only make our happy home life happier. This is a Great Adventure, one I could not be happier to be on.
I love my little family WAMH!