Some days I find myself asking that question.
Today's answer is thrush.
Well, yippee. I have been agonizing over it all day long. I know deep down that there are moms out there who have it so much worse than I do, but that thought never gives me much peace. While thrush is relatively minor in the grand scheme of things, it is a lot for me right now. It is that "one more thing." It is not life threatening or terribly serious, but quite annoying and frustrating. Recent days have been filled with arguing, fussing, tantrums, tiredness and busyness - some of that from the kids :)) I am tired lately and worn out. I am behind on tasks (but it's bothering me less and less). When I realized today that it really is thrush, I just wanted to throw my own little temper tantrum. I just don't feel like dealing with this right now. But the thing is - I must. No choice. If we want thrush gone, I have to deal with it. I have to deal with everything. I don't get to toss out any of those difficult challenges of late and just say, "No thanks. Not right now." I must continue to deal with all the problems and little annoyances life sends my way because deep down the only thing that gives me consolation is to know that it is through these sufferinsg (even if small), I am being redeemed, refined and made stronger.
As I read to the children tonight before tucking them in, there was a Bible verse in their storybook that keeps coming to mind since then. Not a new one, but a good one.
"Rejoice always, pray constantly, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you." 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
I can pray about this thrush situation. I can pray it heals. I can pray I make it through and dont get too frustrated. I can even pray for a miraculous healing if I want! But one thing I must also do is rejoice and give thanks. I must rejoice and give thanks for all that is good in my life. But somehow I also have to find a way to rejoice and give thanks about this particular situation - the thrush. That is the hard part. But apparently that is God's will for me this day. This moment.
Thrush will not last forever (though I've heard it's tough to eradicate) - Rejoice! To get us through we have La Leche League leaders who help us tremendously - Give Thanks! This might be one more thing to help me slow down - Rejoice! There is a treatment - Give Thanks! I am being redeemed, refined and made stronger - Hallelujah!
You pray for me. I'll pray for you.